Breaking point

Ya know that that place where you are about to lose it all? I'm there. I've been desperately trying to hold it together this past week but I've not been very successful. And now I'm one heartbeat away from falling apart. I have so much pent up anger and frustration that I could power a small village. I want to simultaneously to beat someone up and to also hold on for dear life. I'm sick to dealth of heartache and tears and games and uncertainty.

What's even worse is that all the old stand-bys are not helping. Nothing is calming me; nothing is talking me down. I'm a ticking bomb and I have no idea when I'm going to explode.