{hallow}

It's less than a week until Christmas and I don't think I've felt this hallow for a long time. I don't care about Christmas this year. I truly don't. I don't need anything; I can't find anything good for the people on my list. I am dreading flying in the rush and dealing with family. I want to go to a beach and sip rum drinks from a lounge chair as a cabana boy caters to my every whim. I want to belong to someone again. The feelings don't go away...or, at least, not for long. It seems as if everytime I've reconciled myself to being alone I'll get a small glimpse or taste of romance and affection and it leaves me longing for more. Damnit.