I'M GOING TO DISNEYLAND

This time tomorrow I will be at the Happiest Place on Earth, cashing in on my Christmas present: 3 nights/4 days at the Grand Californian at Disneyland Resort. I've never been to Disneyland for more than a day, so I AM SO EXCITED! I have a huge list of things to do and see and buy and ride. I feel like I'm 10 years-old again!

Thank goodness for...

* Girl's Night Out
* Being able to create random playlists on iTunes.
* A cute, warm guy to cuddle with.
* Gap clearance section.
* Easy(ish) classes this semester.
* Events being canceled to free up my workload.

Reading minds

What I wouldn't give right now to be able to read people's minds. Okay, maybe not all people (that would probably depress/piss me off) but just a certain someone's.

Wanting the impossible

Lately I've been wanting the impossible. Something that absolutely cannot happen...at least, not without a time machine. My heart and soul and body want it more than anything, but I have to get over it. I have to learn to live with the longing and, eventually I'm sure, the jealousy. But, as a consultation prize, the universe has assured me I'm not the only one wishing for the impossible. Thank heavens for the brief moments when time stops and nothing matters but a touch or a smile.

This is us

This is the "crew" (with a couple of new additions) the night Heather and Jared got married. It's always been Heather, Me, Kelli, Kirsten, Brandon and Cory. Then Cory married Ashley and Heather married Jared. And AJ joined us. Now Kelli is marrying Devin next month and Kirsten is marrying Ty in April.

When I look at this picture I remember the old days when it was pretty much the six of us, with new friends coming and going. How we would spend every single night together: eating, watching 24 or Gray's Anatomy, long boarding in Las Sendas, going to Bulldog, wake boarding at Saguaro or Pleasant or Roosevelt. Trips to Mexico and Denny's in the middle of the night.

Those days seem gone forever as everyone goes their separate ways. It was the best of times...and times can only get better from here.

Too trusting

I've had a multitude of people tell me that I'm too "closed off." That I'm not forthcoming. That I hold people at arm's length. That I've built a wall around myself. Yes, I have. And recently I let that wall crumble and let a couple of people into my private world of thoughts and feelings and internal "drama." And I've been burned. I can't believe I opened my mouth and trusted people. And I can't believe the people that I entrusted with senstive information would share it so carelessly with others.

The wall is going back up.

detoxing

I've been sick since the beginning of December with only a few days of feeling well here and there. This weekend, finally, I began to feel normal again (well, normal for me, anyway). So, I began NyQuil Detox '08. Let me preface this by saying I usually do not need any help sleeping; I'm a sleep whore. I can pretty much fall asleep anywhere, anytime, in any situation. Being sick though, I need all the help I can get; hence, my abuse of NyQuil. The funny thing is, on NyQuil I don't dream. At all. So, last night (the first night of my detox), I had a couple of insane dreams which consisted of me raising a 17 year-old and traveling to Mexico with my mother. It's not really the content of the dreams that was crazy, but rather the fact that the 17 year-old was older than me and my mother had day-glow orange hair and was collecting cockroaches on the beach.

Scary.

Four days into 2008

Barely four days into 2008 and I'm already overwhelmed. There is so much on my plate that I want to starve myself (ha-ha).

• Planning a baby shower for my best friend
• Coordinating the music for a friend's wedding reception
• Planning a joint bachelorette party for two friends who are both getting married in February
• Going to Disneyland the first weekend of February
• Finishing my application for the study abroad program in Florence, Italy for summer 2008

And to add to all this, spring semester starts in a week and I'm taking 7 credit hours. Oh, and did I mention I work more than full time? I truly applaud those women who do all this AND have a family. I can't imagine how they do it.

New Year, New Look

Happy New Year!

What better way to start off the new year than to switch things up a bit? Hence, the new look. As for resolutions, here are mine:

• Continue to eat well, exercise and lose the last 50 lbs
• Attend all three hours of church and pay attention (which might mean I have to start going to my own ward to avoid distractions)
• Complete six more classes (18 credit hours) towards my degree
• Travel to one new place

The best thing about these resolutions is that they are entirely doable and that's the key.