{the story of a girl}

Wednesday, March 29, 2006


* I'm going to youth conference as a chaperone next weekend. Me, a chaperone! Bwhahahahaha.
* For some odd, inexplicable reason my headlights have decided to stop working. They only work while on high beams or not at all.
* Did you know that birds don't pee? They really don't. Honestly.

Friday, March 24, 2006

{cool stuff}

* This website for Faithful Home is awesome. Such unique stuff...I've already picked out several items to buy. On my "wish list":

* I ordered cookies from MTC Cookies to be delivered to my missionary friend on his birthday. I love that these companies bake them fresh and deliver them right to the MTC. They rock!
* I'm checking to see how much Say Anything Expressions will charge me to make a plaque of my personal philosophy/credo (see below).
* I found a link to this website on my favorite message board and have been spreading mischief ever since. Some of my favorites (that made me laugh out loud as I wrote them) are:


{i have a dream}

Well, it's actually more of a goal, but it's a dream, too. It's going to take some hard work and soul searching for me to get there, but I will. In the meantime, I'm a list-making fool- jotting down all the things I need to do, or change or become. It's kinda fun...a bit like taking inventory of myself and shuffling around the essential stock items to make things more effective. Heh, I sound like a store..."Blue light special on aisle 8...".

Wednesday, March 22, 2006


My own personal creed, if you will:

Welcome to my world...
Where humor is king and laughter is the best medicine
Where rain is just as therapeutic as sunshine
And starlight is the only light
Where friendship lasts forever
And love never dies
Where words are like an artist's clay
Where the past shapes the future
And tomorrow is more important than yesterday
Where hope is the catalyst of all things
And independence is a given
Where facing your fears means living your dreams
Where faith is the essence of life
And heaven can be found in a single kiss
Where the road opens before you and the future beckons
Where anything is possible.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006


I am truly blessed.

* I have two wonderful parents who love me and have sacraficed a great deal for me. They are the rock I depend on; my solid foundation when things get rough.
* I have two amazing best friends who compliment my life and fit with my personality so amazingly well.
* I have a 'crew' of wacky, wild, crazy friends who keep me entertained to no end. They are my adventure crew and there is no limit to the mischief we make.
* I have the Gospel in my life. Because of it I feel a constant peace and happiness I know comes from believing and trusting in my Savior.
* I live near a temple. I have a wonderful ward and super calling.
* I have a job that pays well and affords me so many wonderful opportunities and experiences.
* I have a cute litte apartment that is my santuary and haven.
* Jezebel Jetta :)
* I am an American. I am free. I have enough to eat, a place to sleep, clothes for my body.

Monday, March 20, 2006

{desert drives}

Since I've moved to the east valley, I've got in the habit of taking long drives out into the desert. It's a way of escape and relaxation for me. At first, these drives were because I couldn't sleep and getting out of the house was necessary. They helped me deal with LA (see The Empty Seat). Since then, the drives have become an addiction, a sort of therapy.

Yesterday afternoon, I couldn't sleep. I was determined to take a nap after a weekend of playing hard, but I couldn't stop the swirl of emotions and thoughts. I headed out to Saguaro Lake, listening to a CD I mixed that I knew would make me cry. The sun had set and dusk was settling over the high desert terrain. Rain clouds hung low over the mountains, dispensing a constant mist. I pulled over at the Bulldog entrance and parked. I watched the storm clouds roll and then let tears flow. The sadness was overwhelming at all that is going right now. I'm loving and losing and falling all at the same time. I'm frustrated with myself on so many levels, wishing my weaknesses weren't so prominent and my heart wasn't encased with the high, thick walls it is.

How can it be that one person can make us feel so warm and comfortable and yet, at the same time, so intensely aware of our flaws and imperfections, even though that person is very accepting? When I'm around him, I feel good...warm and content. After we are apart, I think back on the time we spent together and feel like a fumbling idiot. I say the stupidest things, make the most outrageous comments. He makes me want to be a better person, to strive for more. To become more. But, at the same time, I know he sees the real me and finds me lacking. It's the oddest combination.

Friday, March 17, 2006

{these non-Irish eyes are smilin'}

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

Our wonderful president just sent us home after a lavish Irish feast. YUM. And yes, I am wearing sparkly shamrocks on my head. Deal with it. :)

Last night I went with some of the crew out the river/desert and had a fire. Nice to get out of the city for a bit. Not so nice to ride in the back of a pick-up truck recovering from a cold. Might have been a bit of a bad decision.

Party/dinner/chill tonight for a friend who's leaving on his mission. What will I do without him to fix my 'puter?

Chill weekend ahead. Did some shopping, might do more. Gonna clean and work on my altered journal. Maybe. Definitely need to do laundry.

Life is good. Despite all the challenges and trials, embrace the goodness and have faith that it will all work out.

"Leap first and the net will appear."

Erin go braugh

Tuesday, March 14, 2006


Now I'm dreaming about the darned place! Maybe it's another sign that I really need to go check it out and consider relocating there. Everything about the place appeals to me and I desperately want to go. Maybe even sooner than August. We shall see....

In unrelated news, I have a cold. Not just a cold, a stinkin' cold. I'm the worlds biggest baby when I'm sick...it's pathetic. My saving grace? Mint chocolate chip ice cream and chicken noodle soup. I'm trying very hard to keep it from moving into my chest...that, I just can't handle.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

{check it out}

I actually edited my profile. Check it out. ---------------->