{i'm the devil}

Another tickle test...right on the money!

You are hotter than Hades, sinfully sexy and beautifully bad because your monster match is the devil. Controversy seems to follow wherever you go since your impish ways are full of mischief. With mottos like, "Flirt first and ask questions later," and "If you believe in the hereafter, then you must know what I'm here after," you make Temptation Island look like a monastery.

You're either looking for another fresh angle to play or another fallen angel to play with. But you are fiendishly fun to be around, as irresistible as original sin. People feel less inhibited around you as you raise hell around them. But watch out devils, your forked tongue could get you into trouble. The love triangles you create could circle around and burn your pointy tail. But that's just the nature of your game.

{create}

So, this past weekend I thought I'd be all creative and make a cute frame for my scrap corner. Yeah, um, it didn't turn out too good. I always have these great ideas but they never quite turn out as planned.

{to tattoo or not to tattoo}

That surely is the question. I've wanted a tattoo for many, many moons. I've never got one because I'm afraid that, someday, I'll regret it. I'm usually not this catious, but a tat is permanent. No going back.

This is a press-on I put on over the weekend. I LOVED it. I have loved this design forever...so, if I get one, it would be this. now I just need to decide one way or the other. For good.

{10 weird facts about me}

1. I have a freakishly long and accurate memory
2. I have vampire fangs for incisors
3. I have crazy dreams that sometimes come true in one manner or another
4. I've never dated someone of my same religion
5. I have a sick and twisted affinity for violence
6. I didn't have my first "real" kiss until I was 16
7. I like to scare myself silly watching stupid horror movies
8. I'm addicted to adrenaline rushes
9. I rub my feet together to fall asleep
10. When I'm really, REALLY upset, my cornea's get so large my iris' disappear

{jumping the gun}

Insomnia has officially set it. I woke up at 3 o'clock this morning. Couldn't sleep. Went running and to the gym. Arrived at work 45 minutes early. Got sick to my stomach. I am so NOT a morning person.

Downloaded new music. Photograph by Nickelback & The Story of My Life and Have a Nice Day by Bon Jovi.

Foo Fighters concert tomorrow night. Not going= sad.

{remember}

I can look back and remember all that has made me me. I'll never forget. I can't. I want to remember everything. High school. Joey. Our first kiss. Losing myself in his eyes. Lying to parents about where I was. Feeling my stomach drop when I would catch my first glimpse of him. It makes me laugh now. Such a mismatched couple. Homecoming. Prom. Tad. The feeling of being so completely adored. The freedom the Honda granted. Parties when mom and dad were out of town. I find myself missing those days lately.

I can close my eyes and relive those days. The taste of tequila and Joey's kisses. The smell of orange blossoms. The feel of the tears running down my face that early August night. The smell of Joey's apartment. The feel of Tad's arms around me. The cute smirk on his face. The sound of Levi's voice in the early morning hours. With each thought my heart both breaks and heals.

And I pray I never forget a single moment...

{small vent}

I like my space people. Back the hell up. Don't crowd me. Don't come into my space uninvited. Don't stand over my shoulder and look at my computer screen. Don't hang over the side of my cube and talk (aka SPIT) into my water. Just back up!

The exception to this rule is if you are either a) a close friend or b) and incredibly hot guy.

[deep breathing]

{days go by}

And here I sit, safe in my little corner of the world. Complacent? Perhaps. Annoyed? At times. Thankful for what I have? Always. This is my corner of the world. I don't care about intriciate politics, who won the World Series this year or how many horses are under the hood. I can't name every US president and I don't give a damn about the reunification of the two Koreas. Am I apathetic? Depends on how you look at it.

In other news...

It would seem my incurable flirt is back for another go around. As crazy and flirtatious as I was in my late-teens/early-twenties, I don't think I could hold a candle to me now. Sad, but true. I'm older, wiser and realize that, this time around, I really don't care a whole lot about what others think. It's my life, not yours. Get your own.

My feet hurt. So much for my sexy, CFM boots. Their first time out this fall and I'm already thinking they need to go back in the closet. Sweaters. Yes. Still 100 degrees but the heck with it.

I need to disconnect the fuse for my emergency brake. The light keeps coming on. Annoying as hell. Need to fill up on windshield-wiper fluid as well. Too many beeping noises in Jezabel.

Chips and salsa. That's been dinner the past 3 nights. Dang, I REALLY need to go to the grocery store. I need MORE chips and salsa.

Sugar-free popsicles. Good.

I deserve a bouqet of sterling roses, a carat diamond ring and tickets to the FOO FIGHTERS.

Please tell me the days will start getting cooler soon. Please.

{what i know for sure}

What I know for sure…
Don’t worry about the future too much. What will happen, will happen.

You’ll regret the things you DIDN’T do more than the ones you DID.

When it’s all said and done, love is the only thing that truly matters.

Be nice to others. We all struggle with insecurities and a kind word goes a long way.

Don’t date frat boys.

No matter how deep (or shallow) it’s embedded, a fish hook in the leg stings.

You MUST change the oil in your cars’ engine more than once a year.

You always meet the cutest guys when you look the grubbiest.

Your parents know all about the parties you threw when they were out of town, even if they don’t tell you they know.

Tell your loved ones that you love them. Often.

Laughter can make any day better.

Kool-aid really can be used as a hair dye.

Never take bets on which of your circle of friends will be married first.

That life is too short to make sure every hair is place, your make-up is perfect and your clothes are wrinkle-free.

{burgundy chic}

Another tickle test:

You're one class act — the perfect balance of a cool, casual attitude and an elegant, polished style. There's a certain grace in almost everything you do. It's true, you make things look easy — even when they're not.And while there's nothing flashy about how you present yourself, you never fail to dazzle most people you meet. You tend to take life as it comes — and it's not easy to throw you off course. A strong sense of self and a hearty dose of confidence help you handle whatever comes your way. And usually, look good doing it.

{before i'm 30}

I've decided to make a list of things I want to do, accomplish or buy by the time I'm 30:

1. Go skydiving.
2. Spend a day at Exum Mountain Guides in the Teton's learning to climb.
3. Go whitewater rafting down the Snake.
4. Fit into a size 10- comfortably.
5. Buy my own home/towhouse/condo.
6. Go snowboarding...I mean, I bought brand-new pants on Saturday...might as well learn.

{i 'heart' fall}

I love this time of year. There is something innately refreshing about the season of harvest and the changing of the leaves. Of course, I don't get to SEE the changing leaves, but I can imagine them in my mind. I love back-to-school, the coming of Halloween and Thanksgiving. I love football games and pulling out my winter clothing. Sleeping with the windows open and driving with the roof back. Season premiers. Fall decorations. I just love it all. This time of year makes me want to live in a old white farmhouse on a tree-lined street in a small town. To have fall carnivals and rake leaves. Maybe someday...



On a different note, mom and dad drove up to the Tetons yesterday to hear the elk bugle. I received a minute long voice-mail last night from them. Too cute. Here's a picture mom sent me. Nice rack!!! :)

{10 memories from school}

In no particular order:

1) Getting sent to the principals office in third grade for calling the teacher a "dummy"
2) Spitting out "Moby the Dick" instead of Moby Dick in history class
3) Getting smacked by some jackhole during the Grease production my junior year
4) Going off campus for lunch (and getting speeding tickets, reprimanded by the cops, etc.)
5) Read-a-thon's in elementary school (I'd curl up in the little cubbies and be set for the entire day)
6) Book fairs and the Scholastic book order forms
7 ) Halloween at Kanesville Elementary School. They'd turn off the lights in the cafeteria and play a spooky sounds soundtrack and serve chili. Then we'd have a costume parade.
8) My performance in drama of the monologue I wrote about Jim
9) Field trips and getaways (Los Angeles, Purgatory, etc.)
10) GRADUATION

{two teams. one goal.}

That was the theme at ASU this weekend. Due to the recent devestation in New Orleans, the ASU vs. LSU game venue was changed to ASU. As part of the relief effort, ASU had t-shirts pritned up and sold. The logo was the same as the banner. What a wonderful thing to see students, faculty and the community come together to raise money and suppport for the victims of Hurricane Katrina. Although the week prior to the game was hectic (trying to raise money and organize a football game and it's various activities on such short notice is a bit difficult) I was sooo proud of my school and community! Of course, selling the shirts and heckling the students was fun! I hope we did some good. And I'm only a teeny bit sorry ASU lost to LSU.

{&}

& It's FRIDAY, so I'm happy.

& I will be selling t-shirts at the stadium today when students pick-up their tickets for the ASU vs. LSU game. Proceeds will go to Hurricane Katrina relief. The t-shirts say "Two Teams. One Goal." and are supposed to be pretty snazzy. I'll post a pic when I get one.

& I cleaned my room last night (much needed), so I can relax this weekend.

& LIFE IS GOOD. PARTY ON!

{just me}

I'm trying desperately to accept me for me. To feel comfortable, to feel good, in my own skin again. It's never been easy for me. I'm not a classic beauty. I don't have the body of a supermodel. I'm not the type of girl that turns guys heads. And I'm trying to be okay with that. Trying to accept my imperfections and flaws and make peace with them. Will I ever get there? I'm not sure.

{crazy life}

In the air I'm sensing a change in the weather
In the end the path is clear

I listened to Toad the Wet Sprocket on the way into work this morning and this song has been playing over and over in my mind. I wonder, in the end will I be able to look back and see clearly the path I've taken? Will all wrong choices, tragedies and heartache make sense? Will I be able to see how a brought me to b? I certainly hope so.

Nowadays, I just have to chuckle at the irony that is my life. Good or bad, I'm learning to just take it as it comes. To "roll with the punches". Anything else would be an exercise in futility. I'm sure someday all this craziness I'm dealing with will make sense. And it sure makes good conversation material amongst my friends. I'm glad I can keep them laughing with my crazy, single girl antics.

JG has given my recent crush (okay, it's going on a year now) the name "the face of evil". I have to laugh everytime she says it. He's not evil; far from it. JG just knows he's not the one for me (at least right now, and probably not ever) and wants me to stay away from him. But, of course, I can't. I've tried and failed miserably. I just can't get enough of his smile or his voice or the way we can just share a look and know what the other is thinking.

Someday.

{hurricane katrina relief donations}

Just as a PSA, LDS Humanitarian Services is collecting donations for emergency relief along the Gulf Coast. To make a donation, visit their website LDS Humanitarian Giving Website. God bless those in need.

{long weekend}

I've been waiting for this one. Other than dinner and a movie with E & J, I have NO plans. What a treat! The last three weekends have been incredible, but I'm ready for some alone time. Time to clean the house, veg a little, and yes, read! I'm hitting the bookstore on the way home to purchase the second Ashley Stockingdale novel. JG gave me the first for my birthday and I devoured it in a weekend. I'm set for number two. But first, I must clean before I crack the binding. :)

I think I'll work on my new journal a bit this weekend as well. It's turning out even better than I thought. I'm going to finish up a couple of art projects that have been sitting around for a while. I'll post them here when finished.

Other things on my weekend to-do list:

* Visit Domestic Bliss
* Get take-out from Pei Wei
* Print out school calendar (yes, I color coordinated my classes) and organize a binder
* Have a movie marathon- X-men, Hocus Pocus, Gilmore Girls Season One

Life is good.